Category Archives: Reflections

I should…but You did


Alice you should really…


Alice, you should have…

These combinations of words have been at the beginning of many, many tasks in recent months, and I need to do something about it.

A couple of years back, when I was really into list-making (something I should return to methinks…whoops THERE I GO AGAIN) my husband suggested listing all that I wanted to achieve that day, and include two things that I could already cross off.

That worked a treat for a very long time, and I guess I’ve lost my groove with all that stuff.

Perhaps if I replaced those words with “Alice, you did…” or “Alice, you’ve done…” I’d be in a better head space.

It makes me think of all my  human efforts to attain perfection in numerous pursuits. There are so many rules…

YOU MUST do this so that…

YOU SHOULD do this because…

By placing His one and only Son on the cross, God’s response is “I DID IT FOR YOU,” and “I HAVE DONE IT FOR YOU.” All that God wants is a relationship with me.  Despite what many might say, there are no other boxes that need to be ticked…HE’S ALREADY DONE IT FOR ME!

Linking up with Jess for

Just Ask…


Whatever’s wrong with me won’t go “just like that”

There’ll be no dramatic change after a simple chat.

A while ago I hit a wall

Instead of running, I could barely crawl.

I’d seen, I’d heard,

“Pick yourself up, you’ll be just FINE!”


FINE didn’t come.

What I’ve needed is TIME.

TIME to walk down different tracks…

TIME to get the old me back.

Praise God for family and friends: old, new, near and far

You have NO IDEA how precious you are!

The haze of despair is gradually being transformed.

What has been my “usual” is no longer my norm.

That’s not to say that I don’t still have days

when I find myself amidst the haze.

Perhaps then you don’t know

…what to do?

…what to say?

Just be my friend, lend an ear and ask…


MANY THANKS to Gemma for hosting this bloghop of very real, open and honest posts. Click around and let people know that you care.

Sunday Session – My Dad and Spring


Thanks to Thea for hosting another Sunday session. With my last session being dedicated to my hubby, I thought I’d make the Father’s Day part (mainly) about my Dad.

First up a beautiful song that communicates how blessed I am to have such a wonderful father here on Earth (can’t wait to see you at Christmas Dad!), that my kids are blessed to have such a fantastic father in Wonderful Husband (WH), and that I have an amazing Heavenly Father as well. It’s the hope and prayer of hubby and I that our kids will experience this for themselves some day.

Father’s Love

I remember my Dad playing this song a lot on record…record you say. What is that? While searching for this I found out that there’s also a German version of the song…wunderbar!

Tina Rainford – Silverbird

This song is a traditional song from the region in Indonesia where my dad comes from, Minahasa in North Sulawesi. I have visited once, and hope to return with my own family some day. It would be great for them to meet the extended family. With my paternal grandmother being one of eight, and my paternal grandfather coming from a slightly larger family there is no end of relatives to catch up with!!

The xylophone-type instruments played in the video are called “kolintang”. I have many great memories of watching my Dad playing guitar, and both parents singing along at Indonesian gatherings, after my mum had cooked up a storm. Food and music make for good times don’t they?

Esa Mokan – Traditional song from Manado, North Sulawesi
(Translation from regional dialect, with many thanks to Audry)
You are the only one in my mind
Let there be no other
Keep believing in God
And we all will live long and happily
Keep believing in God
And we all will live long and happily

Finally a song for this time of year, a beautiful jazz waltz written by trumpeter Freddie Hubbard, which I first came across at uni.

Up Jumped Spring

Which tunes have sprung your ears wide open lately?

Cherish Your Cherubs – In the Now


When I came across Naomi’s six-week Cherish Your Cherubs project, I got excited and wanted to be a part of it! I have sooo many photos of mine that all I needed to do was write some reflections down. For this first week, Naomi has asked us to Record whatever comes to mind about our loved ones.


Romantic. Intelligent. Funny.

Fantastic Father. Amazing Husband.

Self-confessed Coffee-Geek.

Gifted Communicator (except for those Dad jokes ;))

Enjoys cycling and country driving.

Loves listening to music, playing bass guitar and dark chocolate.


Inquisitive. On or off.  Early riser.

Fan of Lego and Star Wars Clone Wars.

Loves sport, piano, chess.

Enjoys reading non-fiction, adventure and bad joke books 😉

Has the knack of turning most things into Maths problems.


Girly-girl. Loves reading. Petite.

Thoughtful. Caring. Knows when Mama needs a big hug. Softly spoken, except when, like… EXCITED!


Has some wobbly teeth.

Misses the family in Perth.

Enjoys helping in the kitchen.

Loves to sing, dance and make things.


Comedic timing. Handful of curls after her Papa.

Very sociable. Loves giving huggles.

Determined. Ready for Kindy.

Can squeal with the best of them.

Chubby cheeks. Loves Bear-Bear.

Loves to dance and make up her own songs.

Loves eating “Roly-Poly” (Nashi) Pears.

So what comes to mind about your loved ones right now? Care to share the love with all the other beautiful families joining in here? I sure hope so!

Getting my groove back


Well, it’s been an interesting ride moving to the this side of the country. In many ways it might as well have been the other side of the world, though actually that would have been great because it would have meant being close to my sister in London! Anyways, I’ve written a bit about it here on the MOPS Australia blog .

We’ve been here in Brisvegas for ten months, seven of which I’ve been attempting to blog.  I had the privilege to hang out with some bloggers in real life over the weekend. Check out these posts about it by the lovely (blogger event organiser extraordinaire) Danielle  and the bubbly Melissa  🙂

Feeling like I’ve experienced some of the lowest lows that I’ve ever felt recently, I’ve come to the realisation that I need to get more music (that I ENJOY, not just kids stuff) back into my life. As well as getting back into playing in the coming months I thought it would be good to go through our ridiculously large extensive cd collection. I think I’ll call it reDISCovering (pun intended :)). Yeah I know, some of you are thinking  “why don’t you just use I-tunes?” Well, part of the music listening experience for me is admiring the accompanying artwork, even if it is just a photo of the artist.

So while I’m wanting to reDISCover some old favourites, I’m hoping to find DISCover some new ones as well. (Ok, so perhaps I will have to make some use of the I-tunes Genius suggestions.) Want to join me on some auditory adventures?

Oh, and any ideas as to what might create some ecstasy for the ears are most welcome.

It’s time!


I know that my heart will be pounding as I hit the publish button. So many great writers are out there, and I am just a novice. Anyway, I am here to learn, and can only do that by actually doing something about it, so here I go!

Thanks to Gillian over at inkpaperpen for taking the initiative to

Write On Wednesdays

Week one

Stretching the Writing Muscles: Start with the following exercise each week: Write for 60 seconds without stopping. Set a timer and simply write. Do not take your pen off the page (or fingers off the keyboard!) – even if you are writing “I don’t know what to write” for 60 seconds. Do not judge what you write. It is then up to you to decide whether you post this warm up exercise or not.

So here I am, trying to write. I’m not a real writer, just trying to be. I want to make a difference some how, through music or writing. Trying to juggle through life:  family and being organised. So many ideas that would be great to follow through with. Perhaps I just need to start somewhere and carry on with it. Run with an idea like a kid with a kite. Enjoy the wind and see where the kite goes. That kid wills and wants to fly as high up as the kite and for as long the wind allows, up in the clouds. It’s a connection to the “where-all-is-possible” part of the world. You get a different perspective from up there. I just need to do something…to capture that breeze that refreshes my soul.

Write On Wednesdays Exercise 1 – Very Pleased to Meet You!: Write about yourself as you are in this moment. Use the five senses to do so. The main idea is that we should get a little more insight into YOU after we read your piece. Here are some (optional) questions to get you started: How do YOU look right now? What colours/fabrics/accessories are you wearing? What can you see? Consider lighting, shapes, objects. How do YOU sound right now? What can you hear? What can you smell? Does the smell remind you of anything? Can you taste anything? How do YOU feel? Comfortable? Tired? What are you touching? Is it cold, hot, smooth? What is your posture like? Slumped? Sitting? Standing? What does your posture say about your mood?

The little ones are fast asleep. The clock ticks on, and on, and on. Should I really be sitting here tapping away, in rhythms that are out of sync with the constant ticking?

Five minutes of silence…that’s what I need. In the background someone talks about organising on a podcast . Organising yes, well, that’s something that I need to work on. Queen of the last-minute am I. It’s my artistic temperament. Well, that’s my excuse.

Pen on paper. Tapping on keys.It’s like therapy, just as music and chocolate are food  for my soul. I CANNOT wait to play again. Something to look forward to…a gig as a wandering minstrel.

While my fingers want to continue tapping away, and my mind longs to dwell on words to describe the present, in the now my head throbs. A sign for me to go and get some sleep in the warmth and safety of my bed.

15 Things I Love About You


Well, who’d have thunk it?

Here we are 15 years down the track!

We’ve been blessed with 3 beautiful children, travelled to 4 continents, and lived on different sides of the world.

I love that you…

cook on weekends

help me prioritise when I’ve lost the plot

know which cd to put on at any given moment

are a wonderful father to our kids

drink tea when you’re sick

are so patient with me

put up with my lack of organisation

encourage me in all situations

make the kids laugh with your Dad jokes

just listen

are able to settle the kids to bed better than I can

get up early despite not being a morning person

just do it when it needs to be done

stack the dishwasher so well

let me have the end of just about every chocolate bar that we share.

With you I’ve learnt to appreciate..

Before I met you I never bothered to try clothes on, and would just buy a big size because I knew it would fit!

  Remember the band playing this for us on our wedding night?

Here’s to many more years of us being us, as our life ebbs and flows…

I thank God for bringing you into my life!

Grateful for technology


Many thanks to Maxabella loves for the encouragement to think about what “I’m grateful for”. Please check out her lovely blog.

This week I’m grateful for…technology.

While I was away it allowed me to keep in touch with the rest of my family. Regular text and picture messages to Wonderful Husband, to let him now that we were still alive on the other side of the world. A friend of my sister and bro-in-law also allowed Miss Chatty and I to make a few Skype calls (thanks Damon)…thanks to the free wi-fi (amongst many other wonderful non-technological things) at Pousada Santa Clara in Brazil (thanks Charles, Matias and Mark)!

This afternoon our neighbours came over to look at some holiday snaps (that were taken mainly on our DSLR), and it was a joy to see them on our TV screen (probably more for me than for them!)

We’ve also just had a lovely long conversation with my sister and brother-in-law, who live in London, on Skype. Such a wonderful thing to talk and see each other in real time…and to see the pear tree in their back garden. Blossoms are perched on branches that were bare only a few weeks ago, when we were there.

What are you grateful for?

Things can only get better


This is what I wrote  a few days ago:

“‘The last few days have been different for me.

Usually I think I’m a ”glass half full” kind-of-person, but the last few days I’ve felt that it’s been more empty. Just seems that no matter how much I try my outlook has been a bleak one. The initial novelty of moving to a new place is wearing off, and I’m finding myself struggling, from one bad moment to another.

I honestly thought that I would be able to cope much better than I have…hey my mum and dad managed to raise my sister and I without help from family!

I was thankful for a chat with my sister-in-law the other night…she encouraged me to find the joy and do a few things for myself. She’s also a muso, and knows how frustrating it can be when that something that you practically live and breathe is not happening for whatever reason.”

I’m glad to say that I feel like I’m feeling more like a “glass half full” person again. My Wonderful Husband has been so patient with me, not to mention the kids. I’ve also appreciated the input of friends both old and new , including Cath aka SquiggleMum and Kelly at Be A Fun Mum. I hope I get to meet Kelly one day.

A big difference has been prioritising things in a better way. For me this includes:

– enough sleep

– enough fun time with each member of my family

– being able to listen to or play music that suits my mood

– hanging out with another mum at least every other day, even if it’s just for a few minutes

– having some things to look forward to (I can’t wait to see Sting with my husband next week!)

– remembering that God is roaming with me, wherever I am, whatever I’m doing, however I’m feeling.

So, as Howard Jones sang in the 80’s  (yes, I am a child of the 80’s :))


What helps you to keep your glass  full?

I can’t imagine it…praying for Lori


Over the last few days a few bloggers that I regularly read have pointed me to the story of Lori. When you go to her blog you’ll see that she shares openly about her journey of the last week or so, with her husband being in ICU. Through twitter (#prayingforTony) many people shared their support, encouragement and prayers for Lori and their two little ones.

It’s been amazing to see all responses to encourage Lori in her situation…now without a husband, and her two precious little ones without a father.

I couldn’t even begin to imagine the thought of going through that myself. I am so blessed with a wonderful husband who is also an amazing father to our kids, just as Tony was. Reading Lori’s story has helped me put some things into perspective…I need to take in each moment with those I love, no matter how insignificant.

Won’t you join me in praying for Lori?

You can also help Lori by donating through the widget at the end of this heartfelt blog post by hearmumroar.